Still Here

It’s been a while since my last post and a lot has happened (sort of) in a short amount of time.

Last Thursday morning, post chemo, Ed took me back to the doctor for the Neulasta shot.  It was actually a fairly uneventful appointment:  a typical weigh in, blood pressure check, and then shot in the stomach.  This time, I did take the pain medicine on our way out the door and another one that afternoon.  That seemed to help because I felt fine on Thursday.  It all started to kick in on Friday.  I was tired and took a couple of good naps that day.  Saturday was rough.  I was REALLY tired.  It’s hard to explain exactly.  I guess the best way to describe it is, “I don’t want to get out of bed and feel like I could sleep all day long.”  I didn’t sleep all day, but didn’t do much of anything.  On Sunday, I woke up feeling a little better.  I did manage to get out and take a “stroll” that day but still got a good nap in that afternoon.  Today, I was still not perfect but much better than how I felt over the weekend.  I am clearly on the upswing.  Hopefully from here, each day gets a little better!

This chemo round was similar but slightly different.  The cycle seems to be similar.  I definitely had the chemo fog I did the first time.  I wasn’t or haven’t been “sick”…thank goodness.  They pump me with so many anti-nausea medicines before they drip in the chemo – they must work for me.  I was achy again but it didn’t seem as bad as the first go around.  This time, the fatigue was worse and seemed to lead the charge.  I was just wiped out like I have never been before!

Gracie documenting the buzz cut!

Ed has been so supportive during this process.  Yesterday he showed another big sign of support by taking the number 2 clippers to his hair.  Many of you know he has really wanted to shave his head for a while.  My diagnosis with breast cancer just helped move that decision forward.  I was concerned about Gracie’s reaction to both her mom and dad losing their hair in the same week.  But after some discussion, including her in the process, and help from my mom, Gracie got on board quickly.  We let her hold the clippers and she helped take photos of daddy…one of which we wanted to share with you and hope you enjoy.  In a weird way, I think that whole process will help Gracie when I lose my hair or we have to shave my head…whichever comes first.  My hair is hanging on, but thinning very quickly.  It’s actually lasted longer than I expected, but it won’t be here for much longer.  I’m getting all the scarves ready as we speak!

On another note, thanks to everyone who has donated or signed up to participate on our team in the Komen walk/run this Saturday!  I will be there.  I am not sure I will be running, but I will be out there walking.  If you haven’t but would like to, there is still time. You can check out the link in the right column on the blog.  Plus, Ed tells me he plans to put more details about Saturday out shortly.  Stay tuned.



  1. Mary Johnson says:

    So sorry the weekend was rough, but glad you are on the upswing!!!!! LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Ed shaving his head!!!!! He looks good!!! And Gracie is just too cute taking pictures!!!!!

    Prayers continue, as always, and we are here for you when you need us!!!! Looking forward to the run (well, probably walk) this weekend!!!!


  2. Meredith!! You are so strong and so positive about all of this. I know you have an amazing support system, don’t forget there are many more out there:) I can not wait to see you on Saturday! I will be runnning my little, untrained, heart out for YOU!!!! Please don’t forget that I am around (Still jobless) and can help with Gracie ANY time you need. I know your Mom has recently left. Please don’t be shy and reach out! I miss that little one too 🙂

    Hope everyday gets better. Your strength, love and posistive attitude are not commom, and thus makes your support group ready. You are amazing, I can’t wait to see you!


  3. I shaved Nelson’s last night and will again on Saturday morning before the race.

  4. Sam Butler says:

    You rock Meredith … Sabrina and I are thinking about you guys a lot. Tell Ed that I have my head shaved to #2 length as well but it really isn’t by choice anymore! Hope to see you guys soon, come to CA!!! Gracie will love Legoland!

  5. Coray DeBlois says:

    Just wanted to say hi since i havent spoken to you in awhile. We are all supporting you up here in Illinois!! I hope I am able to see you when i come down to tennessee, maybe ill make a journey down to see you. I have subscribed to all of your blogs and look forward to seeing how you are doing. You, Ed and Gracie, and your mom and dad are in my thoughts and prayers. If I can make any contributions towards your team, please let me know. Talk to you soon cuz


  6. Lauriel, Craig and Mabel says:

    I was thinking you looked a bit different tonight when we whisked by you in the car! LOVE it! but guess you know i love the bald guys 🙂 you two know where to come for some “tips”

  7. Christine Cowley Worms says:

    Hi Meredith, saw some of Ed’s posts on FB and a link which led me to your blog. I am in awe of your honest, yet positive perspective on your journey with breast cancer. You are an amazing woman, and I know you will win this fight. Thoughts and prayers for you, Ed, and your beautiful little girl Gracie. Thanks for bravely sharing your experience – please know that there are many people supporting you, even long distance.

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