I’m Back

Hi to all!  So, it’s been FOREVER since I have blogged.  I am excited to be back on-line and plan to be back in the swing of writing!  I had to go back and review the last several posts written to see where I left off (or where Ed left off).  The last time I wrote was before my last surgery in April.  Thanks to Ed for updating everyone and throwing in his own commentary!

So let me go ahead and jump to today.  I am happy to report I am cancer-free, what I hope is my final surgery is complete, and I am “put back together” as I requested.   The nipple guards are gone!  Oh those were awful.

A couple of weeks ago I was cleared by the surgeon to workout.  So last week I returned to the gym and had to re-introduce myself to the treadmill!  I’m slow but making progress!  Today I actually ran.  Slow, but I ran.

Overall, I am in a good place right now.  I’m happy that the past year is behind me.  Not just for me, but my family too.  It’s been a tough year for all of us!  I/we are really trying to move on!  But it’s hard.  Everyday in someway I am reminded about what I have gone through.  Whether it’s looking at myself in the mirror, talking to someone about my journey, being asked for doctor referrals for a friend that was recently diagnosed, reading stories on the internet where women are diagnosed with breast cancer, or stories about multiple year breast cancer survivors that have had a cancer recurrence (Robin Roberts is the latest).  It’s tough.  It’s just a reminder that this is really never over!  Uugghh.  It will always be a part of my life, a part of who I am, something I will always have to deal with, and I think a constant reminder of what I have been through.

So, what’s next?

  • At this stage, I am still scheduled to meet with my Oncologist every 3 months.  My next appointment is early August.  No specific scans are scheduled, just a visit to talk about how I am doing, any symptoms I may be feeling (Seriously?  Hopefully none!), to ask any questions I may have, and to talk about next steps.  She will eventually “promote” me to every 6 months.  From there eventually an annual visit.  We still have this nodule on my lung we are watching which will likely mean another CT scan at some point.  I’m fine with that.  Better safe, than sorry.
  • I have one more plastic surgeon procedure the end of August/early September (the plan anyway).  Probably too much information for some, but reality, I am having my areolas and nipples tattooed.  They are both created from the skin from my back so they are very light in color.  If I tattoo them (which is optional), they will look more like the real thing.  For the women out there you may be thinking, are you kidding me?  Yikes!  That would hurt!  But remember, with my double mastectomy I have no feeling.  No nerves.  I can feel pressure, but have had needles stuck in my breasts and feel nothing.  Really sad in many ways, but my new reality.  So tattooing should not be a problem.  For those of you that really know me, this will be my first and last tattoo.  Not my thing really, but from the beginning I have said I want to be “put back together” and that should be the final step.  I’m sure there will be more to come on that.  And it will be done in the plastic surgeon’s office – not in a tattoo parlor!

So, that’s where I am today.  Trying to move on!  Ed, Gracie and I did participate in the Relay for Life last month in May and I have some great pictures and stories to share.  I think that will be my next post.  Was a real surreal moment!

Comments

  1. Stephanie Evenson says:

    Is this the same Meredith from Novato, Ca (Hamilton)? This is Steph Woolsey (Evenson now), email me when you get a chance. I’d love to catch up!

    Steph

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